Someday My Prince Will Come...

You are a divine, amazing child of GOD! You are the offspring of God almighty. When you come to understand that, the light within you will come alive. You will shine like the prince or princess that you are. When you live up to your potential as a divine child of God, you will have a shield of righteousness protecting you from the sins and stains of the world. When you are right with god, doing his will, you will be blessed and you will be HAPPY.



Don’t expect to be perfect before you go on a date, just be in a state of repentance that allows you to have the Holy Spirit with you. YOU NEED THE SPIRIT in order to be protected! The Holy Ghost is your shield from the sins and stains of the world. We should be in a constant state of repentance and we should also understand that the people around us are consistently changing, progressing and doing their best to be the person God needs them to be.

Dating has always been an EXTREMELY scary thing for me. I grew up with the strongest mom ever. But, I have never witnessed her be loved the way a woman should be loved. I witnessed physical fighting, yelling, leaving, and so many other things. My dad broke my 7 year old heart when he started ignoring me, he didn't tell me Happy Birthday or Merry Christmas or anything for YEARS. I prayed and prayed that he would respond to me. He never did. He abandoned my sister and I. The weird thing is, when he finally reached out to us, after at least five years of no contact, we were SO QUICK to forgive him and we came to his house right away. We didn't want to miss the chance of knowing our dad. 

Little did we know that after years of not seeing each other, that first reunion night would end with me, a twelve year old girl letting the cops into the house and having my mom come get me at 3:00am. It felt as if he only wanted us in his life when it was convenient for him. That broke me. 

Not to mention, things weren't sunshine and dandelions at home either. My step dad travelled for work a lot so we didn't see him much, but when he was home it felt like he was always fighting with my mom about my sister and I. We didn't work hard enough, we weren't helpful enough, we were given too much... the list could go on forever. We never felt like enough for him. My mom stood up for us as much as she could and often my sister and I would hide in the closet and try not to listen to them screaming. 

When they got a divorce after eleven years of being together I was devastated. He was the closest thing I had to a father. He instilled many great lessons into me. He taught me how to work hard and never give up, he taught me to love the wilderness and to find adventure through camping, dirt biking, and gutting fish. He taught me to constantly work a little harder to be a little bit better. Even though I never felt like I was enough for him, I didn't want to lose him. He was part of the reason I was who I was becoming. 

The divorce was very messy and again, I was left abandoned by the man who had been my dad for eleven years. I took it very harshly and the six months after the divorce was final were THE HARDEST and DARKEST months of my life. I didn't think I could completely commit and open myself up to trust a man ever again. 

I dated many people in high school, and I came very very close into opening myself up to the idea of letting a man into my life. He was remarkable, I don't think he would have ever hurt me. It wasn't until after my mission, because on my mission I had learned to forgive and to understand the divinity in the people around me. I came home and my guard had been let down. I felt like a new person, without the emotional scars I had been carrying my whole life. 

I fell in love with the most amazing man! To this day I think the world of him. But sometimes, two good people are just not good for each other. Breaking up with the guy that I felt I had given EVERYTHING to was really really hard. I had dreamt of serving in the celestial kingdom with this guy. But I learned a lot... 

I learned to that you have to stop breaking your own heart by trying to make a relationship work that clearly isn’t meant to work. You can’t force someone to care about you. You can’t force someone to be loyal. You can’t force someone to be the person you need them to be. Sometimes the person you want most is the person you’re best without. You got to understand some things are meant to happen, but just not meant to be. Some things are meant to come in your life, just not meant to stay. Don’t lose yourself by trying to fix what’s meant to stay broken. You can’t get the relationship you need from someone who’s not ready to give it you . And you might not understand WHY NOW, but I promise you your future will always bring understanding of why things didn’t work out. TRUST ME. Don’t put your happiness on hold for someone who isn’t holding on to you. DON'T LET ANYONE LET YOU FEEL LIKE LESS THAN WHAT YOU ARE. Don’t let anyone take advantage of your divine value. Don’t let anyone make you feel unwanted, uncared for, unloved. Don’t let anyone sell you short. Don’t let anyone make you feel like a failure. Don’t let anyone tear you down. Don’t let others shortcomings and weaknesses bring you down. And especially don’t let someone else win by letting them break you down.
Stand up with your chin up and your faith in God! The truth of the matter is YOU ARE AMAZING. YOU ARE UNIQUE. YOU ARE LOVED, ALWAYS! Although our circumstances can bring us down, they do not control you. You are more. God loves you and believes in you.
Surround yourself with people who see all the greatness about you. People who can pick out the smallest divine gifts and talents you have. People who inspire you to be better and encourage you to go harder. People who would sacrifice for you as much as you would sacrifice for them. Happiness is all around us, capture every moment.
And just remember... some chapters just have to close without closure.
And the best part about our lives is that our story, our novel, our fairytale NEVER ENDS. God always has something more in store for us. After every really low point in our life he allows us to reach greater heights. Every sorrow makes our joy EVEN greater!
I am SO EXCITED to see what happens in this next chapter of my life. I am so excited to see what the Lord has in store because I thought what I did have was the happiest I had ever had, but I KNOW that the Lord will bless us with happiness greater than what we have already felt. He will open windows of greatness that we could have never imagined.
He loves us so much and our purpose here on Earth is to have joy. To have EXCEEDING JOY that we cannot comprehend. I am waiting upon the Lord to see what else he has in store for me, I am excited for the further trials I will have that will make my joy even sweeter. Don't give up, and keep your head up! Someday your prince (or princess) will come and they will make you happier than you could have ever imagined. It won't be easy, but it will be worth it!
Be grateful for your trials, because every time you go through something hard the Lord is just preparing to give you something great! Blessings will come. Rely on Christ to help EASE your burdens. PRAY!!! Be honest with what you are feeling. There is always, ALWAYS light at the end of the tunnel, wait upon the Lord and it will come.