Hamster or Skipping Record

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I often feel like a hamster running on a wheel but making it no where.
I run and run and run and then occasionally life gets ahold of me and
I rotate around and crash and burn like hamsters do.
I look at all my friends around me and they all have been running,
but they are in beautiful fields of happiness and success.
What am I missing? What am I doing wrong?
Something always brings me back to where u started.
I’m tired of running and tired of trying.
I’m mentally, emotionally, and physically exhausted.
Heartbreak after heartbreak, trial after trial.
I wonder when it’ll be my time to shine.
My time for happiness.

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